it's my issue :)

Goodbye Gaya,Uitm.please treat me nicely :)

Life is constantly changing and the only option to keep it is just by saving some good and bad memories in between.I am not feeling well.emotionally and mentally as well had affected me in certain ways.

Alhamdulillah.For time being,i am defining myself as an independent girl.stable and happy in every aspect of my life.i am a survivor and more likely to say.i am moving forward.heading to the direction yang lebih lurus.amin :)

Frankly said...i am still the old me.just wrapped with different wrapper and being happy is the only option that i have.so.here i am.sitting on this bunky bed.listening to some stupid songs while pouring some stupid thoughts and random sayings.


it's normal to being stupid for seconds.

dear me,please be strong.

heart is fragile,and the damage is done,

one thing for sure,you cant always seal it...

dear friends.thanks for always being beside me :).

yes.i have issues in me and i am fixing it..


however,being mysterious.unanswered calls.texts bukan bermakna saya tidak sayang anda.gimme time okkay :).i ll be alright and fine.it's just a matter of time.insyallah.the only person that i need is me and i'll be your shelter when i finish with my thingy occay :)

(gay kan korang)

(clique)



Thanks for always being my friends.


and to you,it's just a matter of time :).
sorry for the constant-pain.
remember this,

thanks for being such a patient-guy
teruskan bersabar.bertawakal.berdoa.dan berusaha.

i have issues and obviously you are not one of it :)

thanks for everything,and if it is meant to be.it will.

amin :)

A Depart to Heaven :)

Dad is my iconic idol and losing him is the last thing that i can ever imagine.He thought me how to love,how to care and the most important thing is-how to value a family :).

When i was away to Krabi Island,i received a painful news from my girl.Amalina Othman.She's one of my bestiest and the lost of her dad made me shed my tears.She's 19 by that time and the needs of the dad in family is vital at the bloomy age...She was strong,though deep down inside,i cant really judge her feelings,i knew..she must have been missing him since the day he went away.

then i realised,what will i do if i were in her shoes?probably dying inside or maybe move on and hold the memories.



By the age of 20,another man had gone.Faten Naemah,who's the only daughter lost the love of her dad and she was the only child of the small circle family.I went to the funeral,and the unpleasant situation made me feel crumble inside.



They were strong,and i am not.

Cancer again,had attacked my friend's daddy (which was previously boyfriend),and it slowly kills him inside.The moment was still vividly clear in my mind when he told me that his father was diagnosed cancer.


I couldnt say a word.not even a word.He was real tough.Being the eldest son of the family made him feels unstable in this unwanted situation.Each time hearing the story,i could'nt even respond to one..The only thing that played in my mind was,


you are such a strong guy..



i was with him for one year,and the fake smile that he made terribly made me full of guilt inside.i wish i have the power to comfort him nor to other person that facing the situation.

The day had slowly passed,and his beloved dad left him yesterday.

He texted me and even answered my call with a steady tone,and deep down inside i know the pain is beating him like a drum.




Dear friends,to whom who lost your loved ones,

Malin,Fred and atin..


This one is dedicated to you...

God has his own set of reasons of why He let them go first...

They need to depart as early as possible to find us a shelter so that we can meet them there.Insyallah.

Be strong,(i know i have no clue on what i am talking about)


but believe me,love wont die.this is just a beginning to the endless love of the eternal sunshine in heaven...


One thing for sure,god has granted you with a great father,a man,and a guy.



I will always here for all of you regardless how hard it will be :).

For the rest,value your man before he gone.Forever <3

The art of reading

“No matter how busy you may think you are, you must find time for reading, or surrender yourself to self-chosen ignorance.” -confucius

your reading materials determine who you are-my own interpretation of reading,or in a simple way

You Are What You Read :)


when they asked me of what i'm fond of,i rarely say "akusukamembaca",i'am a big fan of music and i don't really realized that i'm into books until i found :



1.

(these.part of it #homaigodakusukamembacaandakuadalahNERD#

after few years,collecting reading materials,or not really collecting actually.(it's more to like girl,u have extra money-go and grab some books at Mph or Popular)


*let's begin


2.

(my childhood collection)

forgodsakken,i am not a big fan of Harry Potter,but my dad used to buy my like many of J.k Rowling's collection-though it was so amusing i found it boring and some of it hilangsebegitusahaja,most of my collections are from Jac.Wilson and Jean Ure.

3.

(graphic novels)


when i was in lower form,i was a huge fan of graphic novels,and i had like more than 30 of them,nevertheless-it disappeared mysteriously.#kesianakubelibanyak-banyakadaorangamik.my favourite collection was written by Ben.



4.

(motivational+inspirational genres)

it helps me a lot in dealing with real life-ahaha-real situations,little bastards-cute crushes and so on)



5.

(romance)

there was a moment,where i got involved with this epic novels.like seriously,name it and i got everything with me-Ombak Rindu,Bicara Hati,Sepi Tanpa Cinta,Cintaku Di Harajuku,bla2#embarrasing-and it gave me lots of ideas of how to behave like a lady;obvoiusly,it didn't help me at all.


6.

(politicviews)


ohlala,i really wanted to be an iron-lady someday#kononla,but my parents have interest towards the colours of the classrooms intead of courts#lol# -so i have to leave law and menjadi guru.nevertheless-i still read like lots of these bibliographies and political views that involve around Malaysia-at least i know something and somehow it gave me a wider perspective on how things change arround us.#takpandaitapitaklahjahilsangat :)



seriously,some books made me :



*

(wahheavengilamembacabukuyangsenangvocabnyakudigest)



and some:

(err,what is this-i can't even digest a word..)



and even for the worst case :

(why ibrahim ali and mahathir have different views..oh.why?zzzzzz)


so here,s my recommendation:)



1.

(givenbyaverygoodfriendofmine-sophia :) )

for vocab enhancement,of course-JodiPicoult prepares us with a heart-warming storyline-yet it was such a difficult material to be digested.you have to read it like for thousand times and #baruakutawusebenanrnyapompuannihilangingatan..ooobegitu)



2.

(imam's daughter)


this novel helps me in the sense of humanity-love-and faith towards Allah.This girl lost her faith due to the difficulties that she faced.i cried when i read some of the parts,however,she was wrong with her final action of losing her Faith.she should have believe in Allah instead of losing herself.it's a good book to read-and as a muslim,i do believe that,Allah is Ahad#



3.

(it's not me,it's you)

this was a compilation of few stories-behind every heart-breaking relationships.there were many useful tips that helps the reader in behaving a right way in facing problems.


last but not least :

(holy quran)



regardless how passionate we are in choosing our reading materials (harrypotter,fivelanguageoflove,majalahmanggaseparuhanakedoranyothers)-we shouldn't neglect our Holy Kitab and in my case al-quran of course

*the least that we could do is read/recite the holy verses after maghrib's prayer :),and for the best result do have a copy of it in your car,bag or etc.

remember;

thousand books may grow a smart leader,
one God,makes us a reader :)


grab some books and read-it's not too late to cultivate this good habit

Merry o' birthday darla :)

#Today is her birthday :)

so we decided to throw her a suprise party #cakapmacamramaipadahaltigaorangjayangpi:

the plan was like this before:fseggth%$38dt#56*&$#---------->and ended like the pictures below.small 'L' cause missmarlene was not really in a good mood..

1.

(she suprised me first with tons of frustration quotations and sprinkles of emotions due to some techn-difficulties)

#slowly snapped her picture #taktakotpownkaumarah


30minuteslater :)


2

(food carved her a big-fat-widening tootysmile).



and this makcik,(in flowery scarf thought that we completely forgot about her bashing birthday #kamidahorderkeklawey

and by the way 3 of us didn't even wished her-haha


3

(me,wearing the necklace given by her and nafis*)


and as always---->i brought them to Amp.Square(karoekecentre)

-and we sang like thousands of songs


and sang....and sang #gilalamakot




and finally :),the moment waited for *winkwink

4.

(happy birthday darla,we sang her a very melodious+supertragic birthday song)


p/s:the price of the cake was divided into 3 #gilasengkek..


5.

the girl was still in shock.#kapura-puracikadik.haha

(btw,this is Iman-rarely joined us-been aver-very busy lady)



6.

(last picture of the day)


My dearest Aliaa,
<3 A simple celebration, a gathering of friends; here is wishing you great happiness, a joy that never ends

*toast to our friendship :)

2003-2012-eternity-ameen

one fine day in forlorn nights

it's just one ordinary day-except for the day i met my time-worn friend :D.

my senior of my former school-a very good adviser of mine and a very friendly and lovable.I called her sis.She reads Law and 2 years to go she might be one of the best Attorneys.


So-here it goes.

(anxiously.checking the dressing code#nakjumpalawyerbagai-kan)


the journey took me about 15 minutes to SunwayCarnivalMall:

(i was at the right-side of the road,and since there was no other vehicles,i decided to snap#Beranimampus)


-we had our lunch at Noodlestation*no pictures were taken during the sencoredeating-scene)

(thelittlemisslawyer were looking for John Grisham's novels,anyhow-no evidence found)


stupidpose a.k.a kawingatkaucantikbuatmacamtu;

The best place that we ever hooked up was one of the shoeshops there.The shoes were arranged according to the sizes.so you wont be disappointing to try the shoes as all the sizes were displayed (including my so-called-petite-size).

(any colours-any designs)


the least we could do:

(two ValenciaFrappucino for singleladies and the scrumptious chocbread was on her #terimas)


when it comes to the end:

(thisbeautylady gave me a colourful souvenir from NewZea and i got her something less than a dollar;( a handmade keychain from Jakarta#macam exchangestudent la pulak)..


a simple meet-yet nice ended with a warmth hug <3

(heading alone to my car #mamaakuyangbayar)


driving with memories:

(Dont snap and drive)

selamatdatangkekepalabatas-till then :D

stuff that stuffed my purse :D

#fact of the day.ladies tend to stuff their things (including their rental-bills,credit cards,coupons)into their purse or handbag.it's true.and *tadaa..here's the real stuff that i stuffed in my purse.
*aina's fact: approximately,i'll buy a new purse in every 3-4 months.Real deal.

so,here's my so-called-valuable things that i kept.

1.

(my ic.driver license including L)

Reason:i'm malaysian,so i need a real id.btw.i had worked hard for my driving license so i should use it)


2.

(Maybank atm card+government bsn card)

REASON:i need my allowance to survive.yellow for FAMA, and the red one for my scholarcard.a.k.a sponsor)



3.

(sushi King discount card)

REASON:soothing my mood.gain-weight supplement i guess.Big Lol





4.

(Starbuck-debit card+topup and drink)


REASON:this is the right time for me to cantas my dad.haha.he will reload the card and i will gain the benefits.stash the card and drink.Latte?Frapucino?good for caffiene-addict.it's a worth -having card.




5.

(Roxy-watson and whatever discount cards)


REASON:Roxy offers you more than 30% for certain goods.it will help you to save your budget and have a splendid-looking and joyful moment of being one of the minah aussie.Lol.The tribal design is one of their best offers.and for watson?Every girls need this.from the shampoo till the lipsmackers.it helps you in earning points(which i never get).




6.

(the lord of the ring-my late granny's ring)


REASON:I will wear it when i miss her.the best moment that i ever had with this ring was:lying to my friends that i'm getting married by the end of this year.12.12.12.it's just a joke ;P.





7.

(my dad's lucky dollar and jade given by my ex-boyfriend)


REASON:i keep it as my lucky troll.though i dont have any ;(






8.

(my name tag)


REASON:for my field experience-as i need to wear it for two weeks.i named it as Aina Zubir as it is worth to attach your father's name with you forever ;).Proud of it.






9.

(half of my love letters-all come in half)


REASON:memories wont fade away.rational of saving half of it?the others are with my ex.hope it's still with him.






ladies are complicated.but sometimes they do keep all the importance stuff including their vulnerable heart-memories and brain :D

back to the basic

it's a cliche thing for me,espicially.to have a blog (bila single).and yet,leave it dusty when i'm no longer single.One thing for sure.the name(S)keep on changing.and as time flew by.i have decided.to keep this blog.*Tadaa*..NEW resolution...

so,let's get back to the basic:

i don't own any fancy gadgets.like seriously i never own a thing.so, i guess,i wont end up as a good blogger.am i?

so,what am i going to talk about?Language?hell yeah.i am a teslian.and again i am one of the teslians,so with all do respect,i don't really want to talk about it.it drives me crazy.let the others do their work ;P...

Fashion?
~ok.dem.i think,here's my other weaknesses..i am not a fashionista,and i don't bother to talk about it.it's nice to see the other bloggers talk about the latest trend,where they can buy all those bags,whatever it called in the E-BAY..ok (I Screw it up..kan)..it's not E-bay right?..and how they done their hair,but.like seriously,god doesnt give me any talent in that field.and frustratingly,i can't even match my hijab with my shirt..



(the best colour to hide my weaknesses a.k.a F_T)



so,what am i gonna talk?
there's nothing much i could tell accept for those random things that is related to the reality i guess?