Shah alam to Kedah- The Road Not Taken

Ayah met with an accident,and i was so worried.obviously,i should be worrying about him instead other stuff.So i had decided to drive back with the Help of Mr Mustaqim all the way from Shah Alam..


We went back.and ayah was doing fine.accept for one thing

I have to send my brothers to every pelusuk dunia,and i felt like-hellyeah,i will never get married,and even if i do i still not GONNA send my kids to Nursery-kojalankakisendiri,mama nak tidur dirumah.Just kidding..


btw-here's the thing.we arrived home a lil bit late,so my parents have just decided to let Mr Mustaqim to take care of my Myvi for one day,and the next morning,he will send back to me,as long as he janji to belanja me tgk wayang (well,that part saya main-main)



So,the next morning,He fetches us at Bertam Indah,obviously,it's quite a long journey.From Kepala Batas Selatan,to Utara ...Kesian.since his parents got plenty chores to be done,so this so called mithali son just asked me to send him back to the nearest bus station (balik naik bus wooo)...


However,afif and his friend pulak got things to be settled at so-called-wedding cerem at Kelab Cinta Sayang (untung jugak hang jadi photographer.masuk duit jugak.dari menyusah makpak )..Regards of this unplanned things,kami bertiga pun hantaq la si afif dan si anu ke wedding

*well,they called anybody ja as Anu kat Sabah,dont be suprised.im used to it*

(cramp macam tin sardin dalam my little myvi)

Disebabkan boring.mus.aqil.and me decided to get a way kononnya at one and only mall nearby,

which is :Village Mall...



(i called this as NO DIRECTION, Instead of one direction)





since the mall is so boring,takdak apa nak dicari except for Herbalife store,and we hated it.3 of us nak makan okay.bukan diet.so we decided untuk tgk movie bagi mengisi kekangan masa :)




so we strolled along the mall,and decided to watch MAIL LAMBONG.


WHAT!
WHAT THE.
WHAT.........





(seriously MAIL LAMBONG???)





No offense but,yala...i am not a big fan of Zizan and wasting 30 myr for him was kinda a big thing.tapi tengok ja la.it's kinda funny anyway :D




(ADIK YANG PEMALU SENGET DIBELAKANG)







(BLACK SHOT THINGY)





*They talked a lottttt about black shot and the other stuff that i didnt know.shoot.This game,that ID,those tactics...and i was like...ok fine...aqil..you steal my limelight man..and as i was so bored.tak dilayan,i snapped some random pictures of their IMMATURE stupid conversation..haha







anyway,we had fun together.Thanks for the day :D


Ayah is in recovery process and he's doing fine.


As for me,i am now becoming his so-called-permanent Driver

Appreciation night

Being the eldest child of the family means: i have to force myself in being a good role model to my siblings.after all,the only motto in my life is



"Paksa Diri Untuk Berjaya"


I'm not as good as my other classmates,but if you ask me thing that made me like this,

i will definitely answer my determination leads me to this (a good kick-starter)

Yala.saya bukan orang senang.sooner or later,my dad will retire and i have to prove to them that I am qualified enough in taking care of my family.



Last year was the toughest year of my life,and alhamdulillah,God is fair and He replaced me with slightly-better result than the 1st semester.


well.more likely to say,it's my rezeki and Four of us were invited to


'The Appreciation Night for the Dean's list holder'



1.

( mira.fiqqu(theonlyguy).tqah and me )



2.

(Team Kelantan)


IPKB sent us their iron-ladies.All of them are ladies and the number of their dean list's holders are Much.much.much more bigger.8 kot dorang.and..obviously,i am the one with the lowest gpa.


3.

( gadis-gadis tinggi and me )


obviously,i have issue with this.i used to be the tallest +size girl(masih besar) in my class and sejujurly i looked like an oager with the babies when it comes to taking pictures with my classmates..all of them are beautiful+ small size and petite..and i was like what the *^%$$$$...After meeting 3 of these girls from IPKB (The other twinning program from kelantan ),i feel like.

THANKGODFORLOVINGMEFINALLYIMEETANOTHERMONSTER.just kidding.



(with the lowest cgpa compared to mira.atiqah.and afiq,iSTILL manage to survive.Mama ayah.for this time being.this is the thing that i can give you *tacing*)



This might be the first and maybe the last Appreciation Dinner,that I can afford to go,but at least,it boost up my motivation level A little bit so that i strive harder in this TESL field.


I am not a fast learner,
but i will make sure that..i will be a good teacher.insyallah.



When people try to demotivate you by saying that :aku tak peduli berapa pointer aku asal aku grad,NEVER.NEVER.NEVER FEELS DEMOTIVATED.
smile at them and istighfar dalam hati.harap aku tak tergolong macam kamuorang.

*students amanah allah,studies amanah parents,i hope one day before i die..will make my parents proud of me :)*

amin :D

i used to be..i mean still fat :)

I am so busy,doing my chores,including my assignments and preparing myself for test,and out of the sudden i found ....


this.gosh...

(my sophomore year of my-trashy-life in my secondary school)


well.proudly said,

i used to be a netball player and eversince i left those games i ended up like this...


and after years...

(tadaaaa)



well,it might just be the same but who cares.i lost maybe..0.05 kg's ..




hahahahaha.it's just a random post you guys.


Happy laughing :D

This is me

She faked a smile. maybe it is a real smile.the breathless moments was gone.fly with the wind and the serenade of endless pain was end.she’s still day.watching the moment.having a new kind of hope.given by somebody that she used to know..

Pain? There was no pain in her.the numbness beat over the pain that used to struck into her life.There is a new beginning.she named it hope.

A new cycle had taken control over a life of a distress.if you ask me whether she is happy?

Well. I can barely say that she’s doing well .perfectly well. having  a great time of life with new songs.

In the morning,someone will wake her up,sing her a song,wait for her at the guard post.bought  her food and it takes a real man to do that.She is happy.

She should be happy.well.after all,that’s the only choice left for her.Be happy.

Life is about taking chances,and if you ask me,is she fine?

Well.frankly said is.She’s not fine.

Taking control of her own life is the thing that she got to do.ought to do.must do.and should do?

Perhaps,she doesn’t even have a clue of why she behave this way.

She cried

She laughed

She remember those moments and she struck by the lightning of pain.

He lost him, and he lost her.

She lost him and she lost herself.

Self-denial is a destructive self-mechanism and she doesn’t even realise the countless tears that she used to waste.

Well people, if  you asked her what it felt like to be in this situation,

She will basically smile and say well my dear,

You don’t know what its like to be like me and there’s no other option than to be

A bitch J

memoralibiaofgarbagecollector :)

Little kitten stuck somewhere behind the closet around 3 a.m,and i cant get it out and by the morning,i managed to get the baby out-ended ruining my own little closet.saving the life of the kitten is much more important than my stupid wardrobe.


There,i manage to find my old boxes that full of everything,i hate to say this but barely said:i am a big fan of junk collector.

here are some of the snaps :

1.

*a medium size box of accessories*


i am a very big fan of accessories.though i am not very good in matching it with my clothes,or to be frank,some of it were never at my hand.still,i love to piles the box up with those bangles.each of it meant something to a person like me,and ayah is one of the contributors..believe it or not.he did bought me some of the gelangs from Forever 21.what a weird family.trolol.i collected them since my primary years,and some of them were gone-but most of it were still with me :)



2.

*theycalleditgarbagebutinameditmemories*



one of my habits is collecting stuff and i have to admit that,i am good at it....that is my nametag during my primary years.The badge there was made my ex as he is good in creating piece of arts.Same goes to the candles there..all of them have different side of stories and each of them meant a lot to me.though the person changed,but i still have the memories in me as they had given me something meaningful,which cant be defined with words.


p/s:candles there was given by one of my exes on my 17th birthday.he did come to my house,bring a very scrumptious pieces of blueberry cake.salutation was given to him..Taddaaaa....




3.

*lettertojuliet*


This is one of those letters.given by my first ex.puppy love.and now he ended as one of my bestfriends.what a funny life.yalor.mana ada handphone by that time,and he was in science school kot.so the relationship last for two years :).and i still keep some of the handmade cards and dime given by him..haha




4.

*collectingemptynotebooks*


my other unique hobby is collecting notebook and stationary...i have like more than 10 empty notebooks,and most of them were bought secara suka-suka.





5.

*ketidakmatanganmembuatkansayaseringmenukarbarang*




fromroxy.to fossil.ended with rm20 ringgit purse bought from sabah.still i didnt change it because of sentimental value :)



6.

* :) *


well,this is part of me when i was in Borneo.it is still safe and sound with me :).in facts,i keep them well in the box given,and thou the situation is much more different here,still....part of the memories buried deep down inside in me :),

my guards might be up,but imma still a girl,and once the memories were there..it will always.in me...



always :)

a reply to a dearest romeo :)

Life might seem as easy as an Abc or maybe as hard as phonetic.well,both might look the same,but it is on us.

To View,
To look,
To judge

the things based on our own interpretation..

A girl might look stronger,when she has her side-kick,life partner,or maybe a lover.

Same goes to the boys,and things created differently.Love is a good way to convey a message,that we are not alone,and it is proven in stories.

Beauty with the beast,
Cinderella with the prince charming,
Fiona and Shrek
and maybe Bella with edward?or Jacob.whatever#sheisabitch ; p

Dearest romeo,

U might need your Juliet now,to sing the unsung melody,and to create an epic,a wonderful life an endless love.But don't you remember that both of them die at the end of the story.it was the most hopeless masterpiece ever.i hate to admit that i hate with the ending of those thingy created by that Gay.


well again my romeo,

Love is something miracle,and once it's there,it will be something that cant even be denied.you can't just simply resist it,and i know the feeling...


My friend,

i know it's hard to be alone,
watching the other couple laughing.joking.holding hands will make you feel like completely a loser.aint it?

well..i know the feeling....


I Do believe that you have the feeling of
wanted to be taken care of.sharing the thoughts.having fun.laughing.yelling at each other faces.and maybe smashing gadgets?


the question is,are you ready for the negative sides of it?
the feeling of being controlled.
smothered and etc?

this is just my random thought and yes.

if you have the feelings for that girl,

just go for it.taking chance is hard to do,but it's worth it :)



if you are ready for a new beginning of your life.just spill it out and dare to make a move.every lil things begin with a single step :)


but,if you are not yet ready..be patience,cause everything is written for reasons.

i am very sure that a very good guy like you,will end up with a good life.


have faith :)
take chance
give your best shot.


well,it's hard to be alone,
but sometimes,alone doesnt make you weak,right?


it shows that you are very strong.particular.mature.

in choosing right lady

to be the mother of your children.


amin :)




sincerely,
ladymacbeth2.0

feel it.take it.risk it

ihavemadeupmymindandtheanswerisyes.i do

you were there,
when i was in pain,
took the broken heart,
heal me with your warmest soul,
en-carved it with sprinkle of golden trust
sealed with things you loved most...

Taking chances,
leaving all behind,
Soaring to a betterment,
Beneath of my eyes,
You should be acknowledge as a gentleman.

You crossed the thin line,
and you made my mom smile,
as u speak to my dad,

And if you ask me with with for touched words,

i will seal your love
with the words 'i do' :)